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an I Know It's Over related story which originally
appeared on Stop,
Drop & Read! on August 5th, 2009.
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Diego gulps down Orange Crush on such a
regular basis that I'm surprised his teeth haven't turned
orange yet. As a frequent witness to this uber-consumption,
you can imagine I'm not at all shocked to discover that
he tastes like Orange Crush too. His teeth. His tongue.
His lips. They're all smack full of concentrated orange
fizz flavour. There's, like, a full-scale explosion of
carbonated orange going on in his mouth, and mine too
since I'm sharing his.
At first I get the feeling that he's not
really into what we're doing, that he's humouring me with
his lips while his heart aches for his ex, Elodie out
in Trois-Rivières, Quebec. I know he's been gloomy
since she broke it off, which was the entire point of
this exercisegloom-banishing. But I'm the kind of
person who can (sometimes) admit when I'm wrong, so I
ease my mouth away from Diego's and say, "Maybe this
was a bad idea."
Diego begins to nod. He opens his mouth and is on the
verge of agreeing with me when I spy another idea flit
across his mind and take root. "Why?" he demands
in the heavy Italian accent that coats his fluent English.
"Are you saying that I can't kiss?"
A very healthy percentage of the girls (and guys!) I
go to school with would rent their souls to evil forces
if it meant being able to play lickey-face with the star
of our senior soccer team yet somehow he's managed to
retain an endearing amount of humility. This is why I
hang out with Diego. He's the kind of person that could
probably be or do anything and deep down he must have
an inkling about that but he never makes anyone else feel
like that gift comes at their expense. Plus, while his
looks reside in the arena of Greek godishness, he also
happens to be an enormous sci-fi geek. He knows Charleton
Heston's dialogue from the original version of Planet
of the Apes by heart. Ditto with Donald Sutherland's
lines in the remake of Invasion of the Body Snatchers
(which we both happen to prefer to the 1956 original).
All these immensely appealing things about him mean we'll
never actually be anything other than friends. It would
absolutely suck if one of us broke the other's heart meaning
we could never hang out again.
However, never being more than friends doesn't mean we
can't kiss a little for the greater good of him getting
over Elodie. Only locking lips with Diego doesn't seem
to be accomplishing that, not remotely. Two seconds before
I pulled my mouth away he was kissing me the same way
I usually load the dishwasher like a thing that
needs to be done but is in itself entirely joyless. I
swear I'm not insulted, but if kissing me's not going
to be any more fun for him than tying his shoelaces, I
can't see the point.
"I'm sure you can you kiss when you want to,"
I tell him. "But with this whole Elodie thing you
obviously don't feel like it. Maybe you're not ready to
be distracted. It was probably just a stupid idea in the
first place."
Diego shifts his gaze from my face to the wall and then
back to me. His left foot anxiously taps the floor. "One
more try," he says, scrunching his eyebrows. "Okay?"
I can't help but smile. Now he's thinking of this as a
challenge. He wants to prove to me that he can kiss and
that's so not the issue but that's not to say another
kiss won't accomplish our original goal.
So I greenlight Act II. But I let Diego make the first
move this time. Let him tell me we should lie down on
the couch. Let him lie on top of me and kiss me like he
could've kissed me in the first place if he'd wanted to.
He's Orange Crush delicious and heavier than I would've
guessed but I don't care that he's squashing me because
this time we're having fun. If I could work out a way
for us to do this a couple of times a week without it
leading down the thorny path to boyfriend-girlfriendship
and eventual breakup I'd seriously consider suggesting
it.
But unfortunately it's a problem I just can't see my
way around and besides
Besides, the sound of feet padding away from us out in
the hall concludes our experiment, at least for today.
My brother Nick's been immersed in some top secret crisis
since Christmas and told me just yesterday that he was
planning to lay low at his friend's place for the next
couple of days, but Mom would've interrupted us. That
must mean it was Nick who got an eyeful from the hall.
Should I pretend I didn't hear him? And then what? It's
not like I can go back to making out with Diego knowing
that Nick's in the vicinity. That might've worked for
my brother and his ex-girlfriend Sasha but it's too claustrophobic-freaky
for me.
Diego sits up fast, his eyes scanning the bit of hall
he can see from our spot on the family room couch. "Stay
here," I say, sitting up next to him. "I'll
go take care of this."
Diego runs a hand through his hair and frowns. "Relax,"
I say, smiling as I squeeze his forearm. "Now I'm
fully convinced you can kiss like a champion."
Diego returns my smile. "You should never have doubted
me," he jokes back.
I didn't. Who would?
A thunking noise leads me along the hall and towards
the kitchen where, sure enough, my brother is exuding
the same messed up vibes that were hanging off his being
before he left for his friend's place yesterday. I hate
that he won't tell me what's been going on with him lately
and I especially hate that he caught me on the couch with
Diego. I should be able to have some secrets too.
I spy Nick's backpack on the tile floor and Nick himself
is staring at me like he wants to have this conversation
even less than I do. His cheeks are pink, as though he
walked home in the cold.
"What're you doing here?" I ask, folding my
arms in front of me. "I thought you were staying
at Nathan's."
"Sasha's coming over," Nick says in a tense
voice. Sasha hasn't been here since they broke up more
than a month and he doesn't sound exactly thrilled at
her imminent arrival, but before I can ask him what's
up, Nick turns the tables and wants to know who's in the
other room. I've barely said Diego's name when the front
doorbell rings. Being saved by the bell is one of those
things that happen in real life, not just in fiction,
and this is one of those instances.
Nick hurries for the door and I head back to Diego, thinking
about our interrupted Orange Crush kiss, how my mouth
still tastes like oranges and how it's possible that I'll
associate Orange Crush with kissing Diego for a long time
to come.
"Are we in trouble?" Diego asks as I stride
into the room.
"Nope. Not at all."
"Good," Diego says as I sit down next to him.
We smile Orange Crush smiles at each other as I turn on
the TV and we begin to fall back into what we're best
at, which is being the kind of friends who would never,
ever break each other's hearts, but who, maybe under the
most special extenuating circumstances, could kiss a little
in the service of a greater good.

--- Orange Crush by C.K.
Kelly Martin
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